Me and You

Dear Mom
I came across this picture tonight and I felt like dropping you a note. You have been in heaven over 12 years now.

I wonder what you're up to there ?
I wonder what it must be like to look at Jesus and actually 'see' Him with your eyes.

I wonder if you like all the worship music? I would imagine if there was 'big band' worship style you'd be dancin' with the angels.

I wonder what it would be like to feel the actual physical touch of Jesus embrace you with loving affection.

I wonder if you laugh a lot there. I hope so. I never got to see you laugh much here.
I wonder what it would be like to see Jesus smile at you, and you could feel His approval of you. I can imagine you are filled with joy unspeakable.


I wished you had smiled at me more, but that's o.k. you had a tough life here.

I wonder has Jesus told you what's happening down here with your sister. Has he told you I am here ? Has he told you I'm kinda scared? Well I am.

My heart breaks to see what I see.

It's so true that life is fragile, and we think we are indestructable. Then our eyes are opened and suddenly we become very small in our own eyes. That's what is happening in my heart tonight. I feel very small before the One who has breathed Life into me.

This journey has done such a deep work in me mom. I watch lives that are finishing very soon, and they are not aware that they will stand before their Creator, and give an account of their time here on this planet. This has made me very aware of this truth for myself.

I wonder what that was like for you mom ?

I was there when you left your 'earth suit' and you were escorted into the Presence of your Savior. I imagine your were very surprised and grateful that because of Jesus love you were presented blameless before the Throne.

This is what I am praying for with your sister and her friend. A great battle is raging under this roof for the souls here.

Jesus is here, though I cannot see Him, and He gives great grace to this weary heart to love in ways I never would have imagined possible. I am so very grateful.

So , keep an eye on the Gate mom, for in a very little while you will see your baby sister in a whole new Light.

(Trenton Journal : Nov. 16, 2004)